Little by little I rediscovered the song of my soul (my own ‘note’) thanks to the birth of my three children, each of whom, in their own way, guided me and gave me clues on my treasure hunt to find the real me. The paths they took towards their own births gradually led me to my own rebirth.
From an early age I perceived many things that those around me did not understand, which gave me a feeling of loneliness. Nestled within a very loving but very left-brained family, I tried and successfully became as much like them as possible. But that meant denying an essential part of myself…
My first daughter, the start of my journey home.
My first daughter was the first to show me the way ‘home’. I, who believed that carrying life and giving birth would be so easy, was quickly disillusioned. Through the threat of premature delivery, she made me take a break from my 1000 km/h lifestyle and make me ask myself essential, existential questions. The delivery was long and difficult. I didn't feel anything because of the heavy epidural and when she was born, she was looking at the stars. There followed sleepless nights that lasted almost four years. Consultations with different therapists revealed to us her an acute sensitivity which resonated with me and awakened the forgotten memory of my own sensitivity. To help my daughter, I had to dig deep to unearth what I had buried and come to terms with it. My career change began six months after her birth with the start of a course in Kinesiology and NLP (neuro-linguistic programming) which was to last four years.
Communicating in utero with my second daughter
Pregnant with my second daughter, I was lucky enough to be supported by a midwife who could communicate with babies in utero.
An extraordinary new world opened up to me! The inner world of the soul and the personality of the baby in utero. My daughter, by sharing with me her difficulties and questions, fears and doubts, present and past experiences, but also her joys, hopes and aspirations… allowed me to really get to know her.
And through this work in resonance, I awoke my own divine nature and Life’s calling! No contractions, fairly tranquil pregnancy and she was born in breech (I was a breech baby born by caesarean section), by Hypnobirthing. Her birth was my physical rebirth to this world, I now knew what I wanted to embody and manifest. With babies as my guides!
You will find below a short video of an experience with her that made me focus fully on this remarkable and fascinating world!
I equipped myself to specialise in everything that would support and harmonise a pregnancy, and learned how to listen to a baby-to-be…
The third: a conscious birth
My third baby arrived in full consciousness, and he is, I have to say, partly a result of this journey. The pregnancy was fulfilling and the birth, swift… With his laughing eyes wide open and a smile showing off his beautiful face singing “I’m heeere!”. As if to say to me, “Mama, now sing your life”.
He was clearly connected to the song of his soul!
